So about a month ago Jenna made the completely logical suggestion that I share some excerpts of what I write for my zines so I don’t have to worry about separating the two so much, which was something I discussed struggling with. While my newest issue isn’t quite finished (yet), I did work on writing some more for it today, and I thought I’d share a bit of what I started, sort of like a preview.
“There are so many different kinds of people I wish I could be: intellectual writer in a coffee shop, working + observing; badass punk girl stomping around town, black coffee in hand; hipster photographer always seeing and capturing everything, bordering on annoying. But when I think of doing something even close to approaching these types of lives, something stops me. I get scared, even just to leave the house and bike to the best coffee shop we have (and, frankly, it isn’t that good if you like fancy sugary lattes like I prefer, which also puts me out of the running for hardcore punk girl). So instead I sit here, on my front porch with the cars going by and by and by and the people walking or running or biking past, and maybe I write or read. Maybe I only stay a few minutes before I get bored. (Or cold, like I’m feeling today.) Knowing who I am and how that fits with who I want to be is always a struggle, because I tend to be a fatalist; all the persons I want to be are incompatible. I have to pick one and stick with it.”
I stopped there while I was outside because I got stuck, so I’m taking a break to share and mull over where else I want to go with the piece. I’m only a few pages short of my final goal for this issue, so I’m hoping to get it typed up and ready to assemble by the end of the week. I think I just might reach all of my goals for the month.
(P.S., How ’bout that Game of Thrones shirt, eh? It’s got Jon Snow’s face on it.)